You’re Not New, But You Still Don’t Feel Like a Practitioner

Yah's Apothecary
4 days ago
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You’ve taken courses.

You know herbs.

You’ve made syrups, salves, and teas.

You’ve probably helped a few people along the way.

And yet… deep down, you still don’t feel like a real practitioner.

If that’s you, I see you.

This message is for the women who are not beginners—but still feel stuck between learning and leading. The ones who keep studying but hesitate to step fully into the role they feel called to.

If this is your first time here, shalom. I’m KhadiYah, founder of Yah’s Apothecary. I teach biblical, clinically informed herbalism for women who are serious about healing their homes and their communities.

A Testimony That Says More Than I Ever Could

Recently, one of our sisters shared a testimony from inside the Practitioner Database.

I want you to sit with this for a moment,

because you might see yourself in it:

“I truly enjoy having access to the Practitioner Database. Although I haven’t gotten far, I’m already able to use it to target certain areas of disease and help myself and others more quickly. The resources and discounts are a plus. The face mapping especially has stayed on my mind, as I noticed signs in my mom that I’ve begun working on. At her last doctor’s appointment in April, she was told she has reversed osteoporosis. Hallelujah to the Most High for all He is doing. Thank you, KhadiYah, and thank you to the team at Yah’s Apothecary.”

That testimony matters to me more than views, likes, or algorithms.

Because this is the work I’m called to do.

Not just creating content—but equipping women to actually apply what they know and see real change in their households and families. And moments like this remind me why I keep showing up, even when the fruit feels slow.

Why You Still Don’t Feel Ready (Even Though You’re Not New)

Let’s be honest and name the real issue.

You don’t feel like a practitioner because you think being a practitioner means having perfect knowledge.

It doesn’t.

Being a practitioner means:

You know how to assess
You know how to listen
You know how to ask the right questions
And you know when to say, “I don’t know yet—I need to study this further.”

The lie is that you need to be perfect.

The truth is that you need to be responsible.

Many women are waiting for permission—a title, a certificate, a stage, or a certain number of clients—before they allow themselves to step forward. But the assignment is already in your hands.

As Dr. Myles Munroe often said, “The richest place in the world is the graveyard,” because that’s where unused potential goes to rest.

You don’t need more confirmation.

You need obedience.

The Difference Between a Student and a Practitioner

Here’s the shift most people never make.

When you think like a student, you ask:

“What herb is good for cramps?”

When you think like a practitioner, you ask:

What system is involved?
What is the energetic pattern?
What is this person’s constitution telling me?
What story is the body revealing?

Practitioners don’t match herbs to symptoms.

They match herbs to patterns.

That skill doesn’t come from memorizing more content.

It comes from learning how to think.

This is where many people get stuck—because staying in learning mode feels safe. Helping people feels weighty. Responsibility feels real.

So instead of stepping forward, many keep buying more courses, rewatching old videos, and reading more books. Learning becomes a hiding place.

At some point, that’s no longer preparation.

It’s fear.

Scripture Is Clear About This

James 1:22 says:

“Be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves.”

You’ve heard enough.

You’ve studied enough.

You’ve watched enough.

Now it’s time to do.

You don’t have to be flawless—but you do have to show up.

You Are Already Someone’s Answer

There are people waiting for you who don’t even know it yet. They are waiting for the way you explain things. The way you listen. The way you see patterns others miss.

You are someone else’s blessing.

And withholding your growth because you’re waiting to feel “ready” doesn’t protect them—or you.